Thursday, October 30, 2008

How precious the time we have...

For the last couple of years I have tried and done everything I can to not take anyone in my life for granted. Too easily can we forget that everyday is a gift and we worry needlessly about things we have no control over instead of letting it go and enjoying our day. How I am thankful to have a wonderful Husband who is faithful, loving, supportive, who asks my opinion before making a huge decision, for allowing me to speak my mind and be open with all suggestions on how to raise Sass. He allows me to be a mother and he is a wonderful Father who undoubtedly loves his little girl. He always thinks with us in mind, ensures we are taken care of. If I am not feeling well, he will clean the house, make dinner, take care of Sass and let me sleep. Hell, he does this when I feel just fine...he has no issues staying with Sass while I go shopping for a few hours on the weekend sometimes, he feeds her, puts her to sleep without me having to ask. We are a partnership, we are a team and we work well together. He doesn't see Sass as a job, as far as we are both concerned we both "work" during the day and when he gets home, taking care of Sass is not a job, he doesn't say he needs to take a break...knowing that I am with her all day and my "job" doesn't end when he gets home.

Sass is not a job, he plays with her, loves her.....she is his little girl...I trust him with everything, he has been with me through thick and thin and he is still here, loving, caring and respectful. He holds my hand, strokes my hair, cheers me up when I am down. We laugh, we talk, we communicate. We are a team, and a damn strong one. I am THANKFUL for him, and I pray every night thanking God for what he has blessed me with, for sometimes I feel undeserving.

I am thankful for Sass, my little girl. She is healthy, happy and the best thing that has happened to us. I am thankful to be able to hold my little girl and that she is here with us. I am thankful we have the means to care for her, I am thankful we arent stressed and Hubby and I never fight so she has never been around a frustrated situation and I have only a couple times been upset/frustrated around her in her 9 months of life. I am thankful she lives in a stress free home.

I read today about a woman who lost her child at 19 weeks. I saw pictures of her beautiful little girl who will never see her mother, and a mother who will never see her child grow up, hear her laugh, see her smile.

We can get frustrated when our baby cries, we get no sleep, we lose our friends, we are slaves to our house.....yet some women would gladly take that from us, they would lovingly wake up in the middle of the night, sometimes 5 or more times, they would love to hear their child call out to them. I am thankful I CAN do all those things, and with that knowledge, I find myself fairly calm in frustrating situations....I think.....I have the opportunity to be with my child right now, to hold her, rock her, smell her sweet skin, touch her tiny hands as she grasps my finger, hear her voice, see her look at me and know a lot of women do not get to have that chance, or lose that ability.

My life has changed so much since having Sass. I will never be the same....I am a better person because of her, and I am thankful. I love my family...they are everything to me, and I am very thankful. I know I make posts like this a lot....I am deeply saddened when I read of someone having a jerk of a significant other, loss of a baby, whether during pregnancy or not, and it makes me realize...I have it good. I have no reason to complain, and to take whatever comes my way and deal with it. Try to not get upset, to let that stress melt off, to not worry. For each day is a gift, one you will never get back. Do not take a day for granted. Don't wish your child is doing a new trick or passing a new milestone, because before you know it they are grown and are no longer your little baby. You will wish those days back. Enjoy what you have when you have it.

I am thankful I still have my mother, and both of my grandparents and in my family, we have only lost one family member, my Uncle. May he rest in peace....we have been very fortunate.
My Step-father in law passed away on Easter Sunday on their way to Easter festivities, it happened as he was driving down the highway. It was quick. No one expected is so precious. You don't know how long you have, it could be a year, 50+ years or one more day. Make the most of it.....

1 comment:

Todd and Amy Curtis said...

That was beautiful. You should print it out and save it for Madi to read later :)